I find it so hard to do the things I need to do, the more important the task, the harder it is for me to do. I’m a terrible procrastinator and always have been. I think it’s because I’m scared of failing the exam, of doing the assignment wrong, of discovering I’m not good enough for the job I’ve been meaning to apply to. I leave it all for the last possible second- if it doesn’t work out then it’s because I didn’t have enough time to do it properly, and not because I’m not good enough.
It’s an ongoing struggle, but I’ve found that sometimes, when the situation is dire, I can plug in my earphones, play some music so loud it drowns out my thoughts and my doubts and my fears.
At last, in the peace achieved through the noise in my ears, I can finally function.
“Nothing is so fatiguing as the eternal hanging on of an uncompleted task.” – William James